Looking at that title, I feel a twinge of guilt.  How quickly things can change.  I should admit that yesterday I was just plain grouchy and I didn’t like myself at all.  I don’t know all the whys, but I do know that it was the first day home after a flying trip to PA with just one of my girlies.  The other two were cared for by cousin and aunt at home, so we were all having quite the day blending our lives again yesterday. 

But, after some TLC for all four of us, and some spontaneous tears for all four of us, some nice long naps, and Daddy’s good solid presence in the evening… my heart was once again thankful and dislike for myself just inspired me to gratefulness for Who God is in my life.  And that is why I am out to express joy this morning.

Sometimes I feel like a special needs child in the eyes of God.  I learn slowly and mess up so often, but He never gets impatient with me (unlike me with my girls).  He just loves me and remains what He always is… a strong tower and refuge for my heart to run to and find strength to go on in faith, in spite of circumstances.  He doesn’t deny my sin either, but when my heart is overwhelmed by its fickleness, He stands by with forgiveness in His heart, grace on His lips, and love in His touch.  My heart responds with humble gratitude when I see Him for who He is, and once again, I love Him more deeply than before. 

Thank-you, Lord, from the depths of my heart.  I want to be more like You.